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the test was over just now and i feel how come i become so so so stupid

i even cant get the balanced in the accounting equation then how i can be a accountant????

i really dont know what information i get from the accounting book althought i really read and memorize it in many times and understand it

but you know....every exam,every test,whatever even just a quiz,i also cant get pass as previously quiz of business management,my result is terrible althought is not very bad untill

i confess somethings is i really not a smart,intelligence,clever,excellent student and also girl but i not a bad,mischievious student and girl yet

even i already read and memorize it so many many times,althought can pass but still cant score

i always think like that the god is so unfair to me,he give me the pretty features but not much pretty yet,he dont give me a good brain

i hate the fate like this because it cause my life unperfect and cause me feel shame all the time in front of my parents,relatives and friends too

everytimes i have try more and more times again and agian,but i still cant achieve my target that i set to myself

maybe this's the fate that i want to accept but i not completely belive it anymore because i only belive myself the way i doing things

now already arrived weeks 6,being here already 6 of weeks

the times was running as fast as it can,i feel sad and unbeliveable suddenly

sad is because i have a long times no see,meet and touch my parents anymore already 6 of weeks

unbelieveable is i can continue my studies and become a university's student  in MMU

i really nothing thinking about this before and i think i will go to college first then after go university

but somethings that you all dont know is my spm result wasnt good enough but still passed

haiz.....but i feel not content much about my result becasue my bahasa enligh and bahasa melayu just consider passed

what the shame is ??? this proof that from from one till form 5,i dont even can writing an standard essay in for both of subject

so i no confident anymore that i can get an apply from university and even studies in university as like now

furthermore,i decided to have a good image,result and performance here

i even promise myself wanna get a good result and will graduating then found a good job to earn more and more money to give my parents a good life

but now seems like i betrayed my promise and doing nothing everyday.....

i hate the behavior that i must online once times in everyday except when i was outing or that day got test or exam

i hate so much my defect and even now i cant really correct and earase form my real life

i force myself sometimes to keep laptop away and study also do rivision everyday

but you know that,my damn habit was prevent me to do this and i will follow my mind sometimes to do the things that i mentioned just now

out of control in many many times,and seems like i still cant wake up anymore yet ....

haiz....suffer as in hell and nobody cant save you,only you can save yourself

have a senior tell me,in university you must have your times management

means that you have to arrange your hectic times in your university life as what times you should play,what times you should studies,what times you should events and others

he was really good,helpful.friendly and kind. The most coincidence is he's also studies in accounting but he's degree in accounting

i feel very lucky and happy can know him and he's also is a leader of culture and literature divison (CLS) and surely he was so active

but in the conversation with he,he told me that he was a normal student and unactive in every society,club and sports before

i feel much suprised after he tell me these,the reason caused he's join the society is because all of his friends

he was told me that when someday he was online and saw many of his friends's personal message there have typed much busy word

he wonder they'hv a busy life in university ???? but this not completely the reason but also influence him a bit

the real reason is someday MMU CLS society was recruited a new leader of each of the departments

that times,he just try to fill the form and nothing thinks much that will be selected anymore and now he was become a leader of culture and literature division

and he was share his experienced on first time we know each other,maybe this the fate that give from god

haha.....so happy can know this guy and he said too if have any problem regarding the accounting can contact or asking him

plus,now i'm a member in CLS now.....this sunday will be a fun and high occasion because having an events call 'corridor night'

by the way,i will not let myself suffer again~~~~~~

the next quiz of business management is coming soon and will get a good result than before

aza aza fighting!!!!!! kwang yee ling!!!!! belive yourself you can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1