today was a meaningful day to me, that was so unbeliveable and amazing to me but i didn't know yet after my dad's told me then only i just remember it again. Today was my 1 year university life anniversary!!!! wow~~~ so unbeliveable again because i never felt it... i just pass the day by day, sleeping day by day, eating day by day evn studying day by day. HAHA.... u know guys, the part i so shock was the day as the day as me leave my hometown, i mean same as sunday as last time i leave my hometown before. WOW... what a coincidence ya~^^ Thinking back the time i was began my uni life in melacca, that was so fresh and a brand new day to me. But now, i thinking back too that when i was started my uni life, it was too started my suffer life. From the way of know frens till suffer between the frens. All these things was so bad,sad and suffer to me. I felt that i was so bad luck to know a frens or even doing somethings else, all my bad lucks make me so hard to completed when i was studying even affect my daily life... always in down, depression and blur condition, i really hate!!! What i gain was nothings, i means just for frens part not study. No ones will really treat you like true frens, all just a "temporary frens" or "Hi Bye frens"... i really sad about it cos i really needed frens sometimes, it was hard to find someone who are really use their real heart to be frens with u... no ones anymore....
Came back within these three weeks, i just can relax myself and be mysef again. No stress, no complaint, no comment even no revenge, i felt like i was so enjoy my holiday life with all my dearest family member. Suddenly have an idea that "Can i dont want back to uni life that same as rubbish as hell. HAHA.... but i can't no matter i was so suffer and under pressure, i still wanna do it, force myself do it. That was my things, i have to done it then only i can back, back to my happy life before. But seems like everythings was not that easy as you thinking as simple. The time you born in this world was the time under control by god. Your fate, your features, your gender even your family too was already deemed by god. That was too sad, beacause u can't change it even throw it as u like. The only things you can do is just accecpt it and face it, there is no more choice that can let you choose but somethings we can choose is OUR FUTURE and THE WAY YOU WANT TO GO!
Haha... seems like my anniversary was fully a lot of sad things inside it, but this is all true that really happened in my real life not dream. I also very hope these all happened was just a dream, a nightmare hope too~^^ but not!!!! Okay lah, wanna stop blogging here, wish everyone in this world can find their dream and make the dream come true~^^ good night, have a nice day =D
